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Finally
I'm in a good mood again
Everything looks light
And isn't
Sizzling brown anymore
Though I'm kinda tired
And I'm still sick
I can feel it get better

But I know
That it will take
No more than a tiny poke
To push me out of this bright place
I can ignore this
As long as I'm here

♥♥♥

HOPE

First it glows
Then it blinds

First it helps
Then destroys

First it's truth
Then it'll forsake you

One can't do anything but hope
Though it might be the last thing to

In the end when you're crying
You notice you still had hope

Who has no hope
Has no despair

HOPE or NO HOPE???
Haha you really think it's a CHOICE???

What what
You gotta be gotta be
Joking guys
I mean
S.e.r.i.o.u.s.l.y.
You can't do this
A little innocent Barbie
Simply doesn't fit there
As part of that crew
Last time when a new one came
She was funny and cool
And perfectly matched the team
The new one's position
Is made for some kind
Of warrior
Or tough guy
Not for a fucking beauty ideal

Hello little tear
Where do you come from
I didn't expect you here
But I'm happy you came

Please
Come back to me
Don't let me alone
In this void
I can't face it
And I wonder why
You don't seem to bother
At all

You can talk to me
You know
I'd be happy
Just to listen
I've become so lonely
Don't know where to go
Or how

So please
Stay here
It matters
To me
Just stay
P.l.e.a.s.e.

Great music
Is not a still lake
It's like a waterfall
Like a puzzle
Where every piece
Perfectly fits its place

Something
That makes you
Sing along automatically
Even if
You listen to it
For the first time

And you
Just want to be a part
Of this world
Where fairies
Dance over the water
And a snail in a suit
Is the drummer

So just
Come with me
Through the silk fire
Let's eat
Some good feelings
Let's jump
Off a cliff
Onto a cloud
Like a soft matress
{°○~☆~○°}

I feel the tension grow
And I know
I must not
Pull the TRIGGER

My stomach
Feels like it's mashed
I must not
Pull the TRIGGER

Some Tavor or Valium
Would probably help
I must not
Pull the TRIGGER

My hands are shaking
Fear overtaking
I must not
Pull the
T . R . I . G . G . E . R

Did you ever listen
To the voice inside your head
Did you ever see
The shadows of the dead
Did you ever keep
A tear inside your eye
Did you ever live
A life just like a lie

Was there ever void
In your sane little mind
Was there ever someone
In your world who isn't kind
Was there ever thoughtfulness
In the way you treat your friends
Was there ever depression
And the turn of thought "all ends"

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After all
I'm still alive

Almost two years ago when it begun
I'd never thought
It would become like this

After all
I'm still alive

Once I spent a few days in the hospital
I was in a mental hospital for four times
I cut myself to the bone at least once

After all
I'm still alive

I'm fourteen
It was a lot of shit

After all
I'm still alive

Took lots of psycho meds
Legally
I loved Tavor, I gotta confess

After all
I'm still alive

Was es für mich ist, einfach zu schreiben.

Ich bohre ein winziges Loch
In mein Herz
An der Stelle
Die am meisten weh tut

Dann lasse ich alles einfach hinauslaufen
Schmerz, Traurigkeit, Angst
Egal ob es sich reimt
Solange der Rhythmus halbwegs stimmt

Und es geht nicht darum einen Moment festzuhalten
Es geht darum einfach alles rauszulassen
Ich kann nur selten richtig weinen
Deshalb schreibe ich

Einatmen. Ausatmen.
Leben. Lieben. Lachen.
Einatmen. Ausatmen.
Kommen. Sehen. Siegen.
Einatmen. Ausatmen.
Wer. Bist. Du.
Einatmen. Ausatmen.
Verschwinde.
Einatmen. Ausatmen.
V. E. R. S. C. H. W. I. N. D. E.

To myself I don't make sense
I lie here
Feeling the pain
It tears me apart
please sterilize me
They hid the painkillers
Like the rest of the meds
So I don't kill myself
It hurts, I'd take only one
please sterilize me
Oh god
This is horrible
Hear me
No, you never did
please sterilize me
Whoever you are
Take the curse away
So I can stand upright
Without wanting to vomit
please sterilize me
I never wanted
It wasn't my choice
It triggers
And it hurts so much
PLEASE STERILIZE ME

We walked through the sunshine
We stood in the rain
We fought the devil together
And together we fell

It's probably terminal
To share the sickness
It's contagious
But you must not wear alone your black dress

Yeah in the end
I will go to hell
Definitely not to heaven
And before that I will rot in a cell

The moment - embrace
Live in disgrace
Once you were proud
But fell down off your cloud

You want to be better
I wanna see you try
You want a life without matter
But I will make you cry

Look down at me
A shaking maggot in the filth
Please don't
Kick me in the face again

Tears and sweat and blood will tell
Which one of us must go to hell
But if you look behind the fence
Angels invite you to dance

I've been carrying it in me
For a long time now
It's eating me
Makes me want to vomit
Just to get rid of it
I can't name it

The tears just won't come
So I will explode
When it's finally to much
And I wonder
Which one of us it is
Who is slipping away

When did it happen?
When did I begin to walk two steps away from life?
So far away
How can I return there

I don't believe in a guardian angel but I believe in you

I'm losing track

This is madness
I am madness

The truth is a lie
The lie is a truth

You just read a lot of shit

Sing along the rain
Run after a train
Take the lords name
In vain
What am I sayin'
What is the capital of maine
'Cause when you're layin'
And prayin'
That Abel was killed by Cain
One kind of bird is the crane
I'm not quite sane
Almost insane
Live my life in pain
Like the books about Darth Bane
You need fame
To tame
The same
Is lame

BWAAAAAAHAAAHAAAHAAAHAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (total sinnlos)

Also gesund ist das ja nicht, nein.

Haben Sie auch schon gehört...

Absolut unglaublich. Und das hier.

Nein. Es ist absolut nicht zu fassen.

Aber sie ist erst ein Kind. Ein Kind!

Wie kann das nur sein. Die Eltern...

Wie alt war sie noch? Unglaublich!

Wen meinen Sie? Ich habe noch nie von ihr gehört! Und sie wohnt hier in der Gegend?

Unfassbar! Wie kann man ein Mädchen nur derart verwahrlosen lassen?

ICH KANN EUCH HÖREN, IHR IDIOTEN!!!

I close my eyes and make a wish
Though I have little hope for this to happen
Don't know what it is that keeps you away
Probably my sickness is my only guess

Revive
Reanimate
Bring back to life

So just tell me what have I done
Well, I know what I did
But what especially keeps you away
Don't dare to call it could offend or creep you even more

Revive
Reanimate
Bring back to life

What can I do?
Please tell me

Please come back
wake me up
why didn't you stay today
It seems I don't have anyone
anymore since you are gone

You can tell me if I'm wrong
if I didn't get it right
but like it seems I have to see
I'm not your angel anymore