sometimes it gets too much
and I get scared
of the up coming rush
my ankle is bared
the blade comes along
lets pressure escape
I am alone
you only see adhesive tape

my blade is my saviour
it lets me have peace inside
it’s just for one moment
but I have pride
the deeper the cut
the better I feel
after wards
when it all tries to heal

it never heals
a scar always stays
it shows I was in pain
so everyone says
the first cut is the deepest
that’s a lie
it gets deeper
the more you try

you can’t stop
the pressure is there
and it won’t drop
until you get scared
amd you do it again
to help yourself
a mistake in your brain
you keep to your self